Im still trying to figure this out ^_^ Its cute! Ive never used LJ and the similars.. But I always thought the control panels would look ugly o.o I like this one, its cute!
I want the sofia above the icon to disappear... But its not happenin...

I love the icons <3 I made them here (will add a more proper link later when I find out how)

Im aware that the pic might take a lot to download U_U Im sorry about that.. Btw, I took that pic myself last sunday :)

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Ah I should be finishing the summer homework... But Ive been playing with Tabulas or simply lazing around. Im gonna have to work tonight and wake up early to work more if I want to go out with the beachboy at night... and I really want to ^_^ Just so we can be together exactly a week after we met.

Ah I cant wait for my date with the beachboy! I dont know when we are meeting, he hasnt called yet. Though thats okay cus he's at work (I think?)

I wana take a pic of him, or of us together.. But I dont feel comfortable with the idea of telling him I want a pic, he could think Im head over heels :P
Which Im totally not. The thing is Im head over heels in love with the xbf.
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I think the date was pretty good :)
When he called me, he complaint that I hadnt called him or said anything to him since last time we had seen eachother.. That was cute :P
We went to the beach and sat at the rocks like we did the day we met... and I dont know, we were just there and stuff :) He was very very sweet and good
Ill see him again on wednesday.. maybe sooner

Ah school... What can I say? It sucked
Damn teachers, the first day we had an exam and homework!

I had to buy some school supplies (mostly notebooks) so after buying that, I went shopping for real things ^_^
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Yesterday we had another of our oh-so-famous 1 hour dates. He woke up late + had to do some stuff, etc. so we couldnt meet until around 8.30 and I had to be at home before 10... heh

So we just had time to drink some coffee and sit on a bench (o.o I had to sit on his laps). We didnt have time for much, though we had more conversation than most times.

And he gave me a hickey >:| I like them in not visible areas! Now I have to try to hide it all the time which sucks.. Though its cool in a way too

Ah its 7.30 and I have to get ready and do the history homework.. Sucks to be me!

Has anyone else realized that weekends are shrinking?
Seriously, I remember when I was a kid, weekends were loooong and almost boring! I missed my crushes and I had to call my friends at least a million times.
Now I have hardly enough time to notice that its the weekend!

Anyway... my weekend was pretty uneventful.. Went to my fathers house, had to skip going out with the girls, did homework, visited my sister's family (HOLY COW :D My nephew is so so so so cute *drools*) and had a short date
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One of my friends' birthday is in a few days.. We're gonna have a paintball fight :) Sounds like a lot of fun! Besides, we'll be like 100 friends or something

I have a ton of homework and a date at 7 with the boy.. Eck honestly, I dont wanna go. I know its good for me, its helping me to forget about the xbf, and I do enjoy being with him (except for when he kisses me for 10 hours straight.. damn boy!) But Im not used to the casual dating with no love thing.. and its tiring!

A few days ago I had a dream in which I kicked and hit my xbf. When I woke up I realized that I had been denying the anger I felt. Why Anger? (Read More)

Our date was rather sad... -_-
We talked too much about my xbf. I seemed to hurt him more than once today... I really didnt mean to.
Sometimes I wonder if honesty is really something good. I know I wasnt cruel, but is there a kind way to tell your boyfriend you still love your exboyfriend?
We had a lil fight before that... It wasnt a fight actually. To sum it up, he wanted to be alone with me and I didnt want that.
So he was already hurt (I guess I hurt his pride or something?), we were rather quiet and he was playing with my hands. Then he started playing with my ring - my xbf's ring - and he was about to take it off but I didnt let him
He asked if I still love the xbf, I said yeah, he asked why am I dating him then...

We didnt really fight, but he looked tired/sadish and I didnt know what to do or say. Now I am sad and tired.

Why is everything so difficult?

Man... I seriously need a break from life

I need to learn not to care about what people may think about me.
I am me and I do what I do because I want to. I feel the way I do and thats the way I feel.

I hate it when the smallest things make my world fall down.

So what if he might have though that I am so or so? So what if my friends friend might have thought that Im whatever?

I must learn not to let other people affect me so much

I seem to have a busy life o.O

Friday: went out with a friend, stumbled across 2 other friends and spent the evening with them in a park.
Saturday: worked as a hostess at a party from 3pm to 2 am. Got home around 3 am, very tired and sleepy.
Sunday: slept til noon, then did some homework, then went out and stumbled across a friend and her boyfriend on my way to meeting my boyfriend. We had a good time... with more talking and joking than usual ^_^ I guess Im just starting to trust him, plus he was in a really good mood... Maybe because he noticed I wasnt wearing the exboyfriend's ring anymore.
Monday: I was too tired so I napped for most part of the afternoon.
Today: I had class till 5pm and then I went out with another friend

... Im very tired, but being busy is really good... keeps me from being depressed. Not that Im happy when I go out, but at least its gives me no time to pity myself

Besides, Im starting to understand better the joy of friendship. Not just friendship, but also random nice people, or appreciated people that care about me... the little things :)